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the emptiness.
Sunday, April 3, 2011 @ 8:46 PM


I don't know why I'm feeling this.


No one actually care for me......................
I know I'm making a fuss over small thing again, but I'm really sad.
Why can't you make me dinner when you are so free there watching tv ?
You always scold me for being so weak and you're doing nothing about it,
you thought I wanted to be weak and having head dizziness everyday?
When I can't even walk down the stairs properlly and need to hold on something everytime I go down??????
How will people look at me ???? Drunkard???
I hate how they look at me. Like why I need to walk so slow ?????
I fucking sad. I also want to be back like last time, good body condition... I can run up and down.
I hate visiting to the doctor and swallowing medicines.

and you,
everytime when i'm telling you i'm sick or under some medicine control,
why can't you cheer me up?????? WHY?????????????
You just pop out some jokes that are not funny and hoping that you can get out of the topic.
WHY CANT YOU BE MORE SERIOUS WHEN WE TALK???? WHY MUST YOU JOKE EVERY FUCKING TIME WE TALK.
Fuck my life end this la ok? since it's over nothing to make a fuss about it.

you know now who is the one who cares me the most ?


Myself.

or perhaps my grandma ,
at least she asked how I'm doing, did I eat well ?

You fucking bitches out there,
I'm so fucking angry now. when I needed someone to talk about,
what you all do is shoot me back with things that you don't know .

yes i'm talking about you mr.lim
online r/s don't work, he's just cheating on you.
You don't fucking know how a r/s be and i'm the one who understand him the most, you shut the fuck up and sit there be a goodboy and listen to my ranting or don't ever fucking call me again.
I don't know why I'm so angry.
Can you not see people by what you KNOW but not you SEE or FEEL ?
It's fucking one year and how am someone suppose to cheat on one fucking year ?
I FUCKING UNDERSTAND HIM MORE THAN ANYONE HE KNOW.
what the fuck you know about me and him?
you fucking dog I don't wanna see you anymore.

when i'm fucking heart pain why must you stab me with those fucking hurtful words of yours?
I AM A GIRL MOTHER FUCKER.

You are just selfish.
I want to fucking die. No one cares for me from the start lah .
Where is dad ?

WHERE IS DAD????

IM FUCKING UNDER EMOTIONAL CONTROL NOW.

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